I’ll just say it:
I’m allergic to schedules...hmmm
I like to think I’m a flexible person.
Which mean that I am ready for any work Allah would assigned me.
It also trips me up sometimes…whenever I believed that I had say YES to HIS assignment and was about to finish it(which I believed finished)…it somehow prolonged by some hidden incidents I don’t have any authority of and this exactly test my nerves.
But I think the bottom line is very simple.
I need to be very straightforward with Allah…asking Him what His overall priorities are for this (particular) time in my life – and then sticking to them.
At the same time…when some new opportunity appears, I can send up a quick prayer for guidance.
Do I do this consistently?
But in the last few years …Allah has been helping me to internalize this fact:
Whatever my circumstances….He expects me to be a good steward of each opportunity sent by Him.
This cuts out excuses and self-pity on one hand….and overload or distraction on the other.
When I’m at home…my weeks generally consist of going to office…spending sometime with my mum…and keeping in contact with friends and family.
I like a quiet life…– and discovering a great deal of joy in doing so.
But when it comes to be talkative and laughing whole heartedly…I try my best to do the assignment properly.
I visited Lahore. Since I was there…my time as a tourist looks a lot like staying with friends:
we share meals…go out together…play music…parties…take walks…talk…and talk…and talk some more.
There’s a fine balance between being responsible for my time out…but not selfish with it...yeah??
But when we packed our bags with so much hugs and kisses we came to the Lahore Air port for departure to Karachi…the flight was delayed due to the fog in the air and thus we were sent back to the hotel.
I secretly yelled in my heart…claimed someone’s bad luck has to do about it…. and asked Allah that didn't I managed to properly do the assignment HE gave me?
Suddenly I realized…my anger…and asked me…why I am angry?
I like to think I am a flexible person and like to welcome uncertain things…and this exuberant…purposeful flexibility certainly does not come naturally to me!
But God is busily building it into my life.
An adventure is only an inconvenience rightly considered.
An inconvenience is an adventure wrongly considered.
Note: The picture is from the balcony of my hotel room...the parrot was having a nice and calm look out for his freinds on a very chilled morning...and didn't know that someone sneeked in his privacy.
hmm....To Allah be all glory !
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