Wednesday, January 27, 2010
I have often heard statements such as,
"The key to life is balance",
"Life is like riding a bicycle. To keep your balance you must keep moving." (Albert Einstein ),
hmm....this word makes alot of sense but can this word "BALANCE" give us a feeling of complete freedom from anything that might considered as imposed on us...???
Many times I started but never finished to find the perfect balance in my life.
hmm...but tell me...please do tell me....what is it I am trying to balancing here???
Between a little bit of good and a little bit of bad ?
In practical life we do need to balance every activity, "We need to maintain a proper balance in our life by allocating the time we have. There are occasions where saying no is the best time management practice there is".
Of course, we should balance our food intake, our activity level, commitments etc....hmm...after all it does not look nice to be in office by midnight everyday...or dinning out everyday...or playing cards all day long with friends and not even thinking of wife alone at home..hmm...
But there are so many other things on which we don't have any authority or power to balanced them.
Allah....has made me a woman....a daughter....a wife and may be future mother as well and I don't want to balance the role HE has assigned me.
I mean I cant be thinking...hmm...." Oh... I have spent too much time being a blessing to my beloved husband this week, I really should cut back on that ! "
I wouldn't never ever tell my child , " I am sorry, I know you are crying and need attention, but I have been taking care of you too much today so need to be balanced."
Instead I readily would throw myself into what my loved ones requires and being the very best daughter, wife and mother I wouldn't say a word about balance. Because may be this is what ALLAH wants me to do at that time.
Even our beloved Prophet Muhammad (PBUH) go beyond his power and strength to brought back ALLAH's faith in people.
Even our migration from India to Pakistan and the leaving all our life's saving behind would sometimes be considered as out of balanced but that was the need of time.
So when in need its ok to be out of....BALANCE....hmmm.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Sunday, January 24, 2010
I wish I could get out of bed every morning at 5 a.m. to a clean home. I wish I could shower...dress...and fix my hairs before my beloved husband wakes up. I wish I could spend a solid hour of interrupted time reciting QURAN before I begin my day.
I wish I could have the house all perfectly cleaned and in order by 7 a.m, every morning. I wish that the laundry and dishes magically washed themselves and put themselves away.
I wish that I never said an unkind word or had an unkind thought. I wish that I would never disappoint my mother in law. I wish that I could spend all say everyday playing with my nieces and nephews. I wish I were never tired and had a endless energy all the time. I wish I could live on three hours sleep or less every night.
hmmm....long list of wishes....and instead....
I am just ME....hmm
My house is often messy and always in need of some type of cleaning. I am always behind in some area. I never get to spend as much time playing or reading as I'd like.
I am forever behind on the ironing. My beloved husband comes home some night and find me exhausted...the house is messy...dinner is only a figment of my imagination and I am still in my bad mood.
I often say and do things to my mother and mother in law that I regret later. I fail in some area on an everyday basis and can easily become discouraged and overwhelmed.
Yes.....most of the time....I wish.... I were PERFECT.
But...then....I realize that if I were perfect...
I'd never have anything to trust ALLAH about.
I'd never need anyone to pray for me.
I'd never need anyone's help.
I'd never have to cry out to ALLAH for mercy when I'd failed yet again.
I'd never need comfort from the QURAN.
And I'd never know the depths of God's grace and mercy to one so undeserving as me.
hmm...so the bottom point is....its ok if I am NOT PERFECT....hmmm.....beside we have our PERFECT ALLAH to take care of our unperfectness...hmm
Thursday, January 21, 2010
The Death of Henry II from a jousting accident is one of Nostradamus first and most famous fulfilled prophecies.
This picture took my attention as it shows a moon with stars and the rise of apoclpse.
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Sunday, January 17, 2010
It was an evening walk with my brother in law with family after the lunch... along came my beloved husband. Husband was asking childish question to my brother in law and he was answering like a father to him. I liked the way two brothers were showing affection to each other.
Brother in Law was talking about how he struggled in America to get a job and a house and how he went to Canada after 9/11 and he again worked for his future from zero point.
"But you know....there you can find a destiny. If you are hard worker and keep up the good reputation you can succeed." He said with smile on his lips and shine in his eyes. I can feel the calmness of achievement in his voice.
One of his boy was eating a burger.... a road side ban kabab... for which I was not agreed to give to the new comer in Karachi but the father insisted. He said "Don't worry bhabi...he will survive...lol"
When the boy ate the burger he asked me where to drop the trash....hmm...I was about to say...drop it where ever you like...but than as I remembered that they are not locals I clear my throat and said...hmm....we will find a dustbin soon and you use it than...OK?
The nice little boy kept the ban kabab rapper in his hand with his other hand busy pointing out our lovely...unicorn...fast and furious type of buses.
"Did you ever ride on them? " He asked me. I said with confidence "Yes...lot of time...when ever I like to punish myself for not being a good person. And its a quick way to remember Allah too..hmm."
And with these conversation our journey goes on and on....but we didn't find any dustbin anywhere during our walk.
I know there is been alot of establishment during few years in Karachi and they are also keeping all the streets and roads clean but there are still so much to do.
It is not our habit which makes us drop the trash everywhere...where ever we liked. It is also lack of trash bins on every roads or streets. If you are coming from Gulshan-e-Iqbal to Bahadurabad through Stadium Road(even though the Stadium road contains the Cricket stadium which is the place where so many people gather time to time which means trash time to time) but....how many trash bin you can find on the road....none.
Which ultimately left us only one choice...hmm.
By the way I am not RE-thinking Rubbish only this time.....I always think rubbish.