Thursday, March 25, 2010

Beyond Doubt !

There are two kind of exams....hmm...

One of them is, in which you expect the result...and usually take it to achieve some kind of degree and such degree you can use rest of your life.

That degree serve you one step ahead and once you gave that exam you don't need to take it again and again and again....unless you can't clear it with the desired marks.....

For desired marks....it is very easy....the goal is already been set for you...you just need to know....that to pass certain exam you need to fill the exam paper with such such questions and if you do this much questions...you will achieve that particular marks need for your clearance.

For filling up the paper....don't worry....market is full of sample papers plus you have your mentors...teachers..friends who can help you on the solved papers and you just need to rectify it by your heart and act like a printer in the exam.

hmm...even after all the above help you can't clear the exam...no worry...you have chances to attempt the exam again and again and again...until you achieved your required marks.

Now...I know....you would be thinking about the other type of exam....as I did mentioned at the start of my post that there are two type of exams....

For one...hmm...I have explained earlier and for the second.....I couldn't still find the explanation...though I have few statements....about that other..second...unique kind of exam...

That exam usually is on suspense basis....more like a video game...but in video game you can restart....in this exam....if you loose....you will lost forever....

I asked myself....why...????

Do I really need to give this exam....? Why..? Why not I just skip this and that and than coming one...I just don't like suspense basis exams....

hmmm....but I have to face them...once they are in your way...you have to either take it or take it....cause there is no other choice...

The most un healthy part of this exam is ....the goals are not being set or shared with you...you just blindly take the exam and you don't even know what your result would be...as even your results are in save custody and you have no authority over them....

You can't find....help as solved papers...or...any human help like....mentors and teachers..friend...though they all had given the same exams but all would prefer you not to speak anyone about it and take it as blindly as they did....because...your exam paper will be totally different....unique....ment for you only....

So you don't know...what that exam is all about...what degree you will achieve after that exam...what are the passing marks...how are the failures look like....any distinction....so many questions and no answer....hmmm...

I have been given so many these kind of exams lately..in which I think I am just loosing my faith and my believe on my MAKER....

hmmm....in which....I cant asked HIM to show me my results....my answer sheets....no I am not satisfied with my result...I want a recheck.....hmmm....

What about the degree...I suffered so much for it....for YOUR exam....to prove YOU that I am eligible than where is my degree....? How would other know that I cleared it or not????

Just because.....YOU are...unquestionable....hmmm.......

8 comments:

  1. Dear,

    Again, your introspection will certainly, like with me, ring many bells of recognition with your readers!

    Well, some years back, when listening to so-called "Christian radio" on long trips back and forth to visit son and to visit someone in prison...I simply got "fed up" and wanted NOTHING more to do with listening to religious preachers...of my religion...maybe the same with you in some way?

    The reason? Because some if not most of the preachers and teachers had these little high sounding teachings where they had things "all figured out" according to them...and you felt like, in listening to them, you'd only pass the test and be on God/Allah's side IF you could only remember and act on THEIR systems (and many were very very complicated and sounded like THEY had a market on God...and not one of them completely agreed with one another...very confusing indeed. Does this ever happen in your religion or branch of it? And I also didn't enjoy the way they would sound so superior and put down certain kinds of people who were not like them...and could be so dogmatic saying what certain scriptures were about...or they had certain prophecies that left out LOTS of people or other nationalities...even children who couldn't help where they were born...

    Hey, I said to self, that's NOT the God I know...

    Any other readers here feel this way? Whatever the religion or the variety of any particular faith?

    Well, I really did GIVE UP on these religious teachers...they confuse me more than helped me...

    I just started to really believe that GOD loves me and that GOD loves YOU...all of us...

    And my very simple journey has led me to you, you, Thinking and you, Akhtar Sahib, and you Komal and ReeBz and Fahaz and you Smart Sis and all others here...including our host and teacher here...

    And somehow, getting into a newer and delightful environment has helped me to accept some teaching again...some fresh ways to observe and ponder and lots of simple conversations...

    Sometimes considering that each and every choice may be like an exam is worrisome still but mostly most of the time, I just don't any longer believe that Allah is quite like that...sorry if this is a problem to any here?

    To be continued...

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  2. Part Two

    I just envision more and more that He would rather have us enjoy one another and all the non-academic varieties of interaction where we are simply seeking and praying to be our best and to see one another's best...and to have a few less worries whenever possible...

    How far from perfect I am every single hour of every single day...yet I simply keep looking to the golden rule...to do unto others as we'd like done to us...

    Maybe it's not knowing exactly what - facing that we are not in control - in this 2nd "exam" - that makes learning about the deeper things of life more compelling, transformative and real than studying about it from even the best of our religious teachers and sermons? And surely they are needed when we are very young sometimes...or on special occasions? I'm not saying to stay away from mosques or churches...just to keep our daily experiences ALIVE and conversational with the Creator, Sustainer, Lover of our soul and to that which is Divine as well as Human in others?

    Or maybe I'm wrong? Well, I'm really looking forward to others' responses...

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  3. Sorry for a 3rd comment but I am wondering if you go to Urooj Malik's comment under ReeBz last one to see if anything said there applies to your questions here?

    I am particularly excited about those comments Urooj gave...

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  4. As usual the post is full of surprises, very vibrant and catching attention. But the sad part is where the writer seems to lose hope and faith. Thinking, when we lose faith we lose the most precious friend. The forces of darkness try to isolate us with the Beloved and when we lose faith we are isolated, left stranded in wilderness and loneliness. Life is not mere circumstances it is more of an attitude, that is the test and that is the task. Attitude is considered principal thing in life. It is not the conditions and circumstances in life which change our life, but generally it is our attitude towards life that change the conditions around us, and upon that depends our happiness and unhappiness.

    God ‘s benevolence and compassion cannot be measured with some specific limitations, that is a hasty way to count His blessings. In our happiness God is happy, in our sorrow’s God is sad, he has given us the most outstanding gift called SELF. We through realization grow and that growth leads us to the meaning of life. When life is self-centered we feel the gush, the anxiety and restlessness. When the life is self-less we find the centre and with that comes relentless bliss which is devoid of objects and subjects.

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  5. Dear, I'm praying that if possible you and another here will be able to attend that Creative Leaders' conference mentioned in my latest posting...should you wish so.

    As always, Akhtar Sahib helps me at least as much as everyone else.

    Interesting as well when SELF, Collective Ego, self-lessness purity of true love for the community of us all - when they all start to become more clear.. while never fully...

    and when understanding their secrets (The Secret of the Self) and their paradox and the ways these words are meant and used in various cultures - when this comprehension realized - even in small measure - leads to great freedom and confidence. You, Thinking, are headed that way. Keep on keeping on.

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  6. "Advice adds another voice to my head to confuse me..and gives me another person to blame...when their advice doesn't work....hmmm"

    Saw this little item from your FB page: February 21 at 4:52am and FEEL it with you...have felt exactly that way so much of my life...and you so clearly explain why sometimes it's just way too much to deal with....

    When I come back in a few days, I intend to more empathy & hopefully much less advice... :) You are figuring out so many aspects of inner outer life just perfectly....

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  7. Dear Everyone....

    You have given me so much time and energy for which I am honored.

    I have your email Id's and will reply you on that.

    Thank you so much for your time and concern and sharing such nice thoughts with me.

    I am honored.

    Take Care.

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