Tuesday, September 28, 2010

I had Hoped !

So one of my cousin called me and after few snapping remarks he finally throw the question on me....and it hit me across the face...hmmm...

And I struggled with it for a minute or two.

“Is it everything that you had hoped it would be?”

I looked back over the past couple years...and weighed the moments...and tears fell unheeded as I remembered…

Moments when my world seemed caved in and my heart ached from being broken in ways that I didn’t think could ever be repaired.

Moments when I stood on the mountains and looked down to the valleys and realized what it will be like to truly “mount up with wings as an eagle”.

Moments when I waited in the darkness....uncertain what the next step would be.

Moments when I was afraid. Moments when I simply had to trust that He knew best in the end.

Moments when I first tasted True Love. Moments when I lost.

Moments when I won.

Moments of wondering- why, how, when.

Moments of revelation.

Moments of sorrow and moments of joy.
The past few years held my life’s saddest and its happiest moments...and my heart still ached from wounds that feel too fresh to touch just yet.

But the tears weren’t for the painful moments and wishful longings for things that might have been that can never be.

They were for the blessed reality that there is One who is greater than all these things.

One who does exceedingly...and abundantly above all that we can ask...think or even begin to imagine.

One who gives us those moments on eagle’s wings of pure happiness.

One who can heal even broken hearts.

One who walks beside us...and who carries us when our feet are too weary to walk.

In the sorrows....I found beautiful treasures of the heart that I could have never known...

In the moments of uncertainty....I found trust growing stronger.

In the moments of happiness...I tasted Heaven’s joy.

In the quiet moments...I learned to listen.

In the brokenness...I learned to be complete in Him.

Not a moment was a wasted moment.

I looked at my life and saw that....instead of just what I had hoped for in my most cherished...unspoken dreams...my God had given what I couldn’t even hope for....

So dear Cousin....Yes....this is everything that I had hoped it would be.....
To Allah be all glory !

11 comments:

  1. Lovely.
    Sometimes looking forward is more therapeutic than looking back...

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  2. Remarkable reflection, what a beautiful combination of poetry and prose.

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  3. In the sorrows....I found beautiful treasures of the heart that I could have never known...

    In the moments of uncertainty....I found trust growing stronger.

    In the moments of happiness...I tasted Heaven’s joy.

    In the quiet moments...I learned to listen.

    In the brokenness...I learned to be complete in Him.

    Not a moment was a wasted moment.


    beautiful thoughts,thinking..and i thank u for thinking and sharing such stuff :)

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  4. we learn from all the broken dreams and HE surely gives us what is best for us..

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  5. Dear Thinking,

    This may be my most favorite post of yours so far and there are many favorites.

    Why?

    --because of the authentic flow and beauty of what you expressed.

    --because of the universally understood yet subtle inclusion of so much human emotion and experience

    --because when such tears flow for realization and even a kind of quiet joy/triumph such tears are signs of where we now exist and smiles perhaps of the One's awareness as well...complimenting our own peace

    Thanx so much for this and my own congratulations for your enormous spiritual accomplishments. I'm so glad that not only do you now have this record to remind yourself when things get tough again in the future...and they will...yet WE also have such a perfect mirror of our own such moments of the same...

    Keep On - Keeping On...

    And by the way, I'm smiling noticing that you have included a few phrases from the loveliest and most inclusive writings from my own tradition...

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  6. well written ...

    nice blog btw.

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  7. true-ly true, Inspiring! it ws d greatEst read amOng Ur awl inpiratiOnal pOsts :)
    Thank U so mUch for ds! luvd it♥

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  8. Thanks alot everyone....for coming and giving me time.

    I am honored to have you on my blog.

    Thank you so much !

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  9. Best post ever !
    Indeed ! .... I agree with what you've said ..in the end hings turn out the way they best suit us and ofcourse all praises are for HIM and all hopes are towards HIM !
    Loved the post !

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