All of us can detect...identify...acknowledge it as soon as it happens to us...we may have faced it periods of time...hmm...
.....but not even for a single instance we think of it legal...proper or sensible....we may feel indifference...annoyance....mild anger...but never accept it as deserving...
All of us knows what it feels like to be disliked...rejected...abandoned... and most of the time it hurts...
Hurts because we are being hated for things we have no control over or being hated for the things we cannot change or the things we didn’t even have done...hmm....
So the best remedy to get rid of this or to deflect this HURT is to believe that the dislike or hatred is unjustified – you didn't deserve that...hmm....
You start ranting endlessly about it to all your closed friends and family members whom you feel comfortable to talk and they help you...help you built the wall against the hatred or to protect your self-esteem...ego...character...help you justify yourself to yourself and keeps you remember that this is a part of all human life....helps you move on...grow beyond it.
But not all of us are such lucky one...may be one of us is not confident enough to think oneself undeserving of this illegitimate hatred...may be one of us don't have such confidants to help one grow beyond unjustified rejection...and thus this powerful self-loathing may turn oneself into a dangerous...violent...brutal person.
....sometimes this unjustified hatred...rejection...make oneself surrender one’s identity...
The character completely melts into the persona which lacks ego...self respect and self-esteem.
There are some who collapse...hmm....silently...anonymously....with no voice to express or acknowledge it.
Have you ever felt it?
(Took inspiration from Toni Morrison...novel - The Bluest Eye )